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“Do You Miss Talking to God?”
I received an email the other day in response to a recent blog I had published. The person asked If I “miss talking to God” and do I miss “….sensing His presence or feeling heard by someone that big and loving? I don’t mean that as a way to say you should pray or do…
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Self-Help Books That Caused Me To Spiral: Part 1.
I describe my deconstruction journey like riding a roller coaster in three phases- phase one starts off with getting into the roller coaster, gearing up for the ride, and slowly approaching the top, not really sure what to expect. I strapped into the ride feeling worn out, needing answers, relief from the thoughts that consumed…
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Happy Nude Year!
Last year I was very intentional about connecting to myself and my body, after years of feeling shame for living in this flesh-suit. A few ways I did that was: seeing a pelvic health therapist, having more open communication with my partner, doing a photoshoot in my underwear, and visiting a nudist resort, twice. Going…
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Is It My Fault? Or Is It the Church’s Fault?
Is my religious trauma my fault, or is it the church’s fault? Did I indoctrinate myself? After all, I enjoyed going to church as a child, and no one forced me to go to church as an adult. No one forced me to go to a bible school, work for a ministry, or use my…
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What Happened When I Listened to the Church About Purity.
tw: sexual abuse Oh what I wish I could tell my past self- that what happened to you does not mean you’re tainted. You are not dirty. You are not impure. I drew this picture in 2014 a few days after being in a circumstance that I didn’t know how to process. A girl balled…
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Life Coaching for Religious Recovery and Spiritual Abuse.
I was three sessions deep into my counseling appointments, each time thinking I would come out cured and never needing help again, only to find myself in a bigger mess than when I came in. I started therapy in the hopes that it would help lift my overwhelming burden, that I was not being authentic,…
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Leaving Church Is Not A Trend Or Movement.
What are some of your favorite trends in your lifetime? Mine are necklace chokers from the 90’s, charcuterie boards, and Tamagotchi pets. My least favorite trends are chunky highlights, ultra thin eyebrows, super high-wasted jeans, and Christians speaking on the behalf of people who have undergone tough situations and chose to leave church. In other…
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Thirty, Flirty, & Dying.
April 9th I was at work doing a haircut when all of a sudden a wave of tingling heat started from the lower back of my neck, and then overwhelming the sides of my neck and throat. It lasted maybe 10 seconds, while having this feeling I might fall down, faint, or vomit. Somehow I…